Wednesday, August 10, 2011

The Smell of Fear

Do you ever have fear?
I find myself battling fear lately.

As I near the end of this pregnancy I fear that Arty will return. I don't want him back. I fear the pain, the fatigue, and the inability to do the things I want to do.

I think it weighs on the back of my mind more than I pay attention to.

I don't want to be the person no one can count on again. I don't want to be the one who needs help. I don't want to be a burden to anyone.

I wish I could just stay pregnant and in remission forever.

I hate fear!

Am I the only person who battles with this?

What do you do to ward off fears that you have?

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