Sunday, February 26, 2012

The Tender and the Not-So-Much

Last night, from the other room, I heard the voice of my husband in a hushed whisper say, "Honey, come look at this."

When I walked in, there was my husband standing with Mr. Bink's lying in his arms. He looked up at me with a grin and quietly whispered "He fell asleep smiling at me." There lay our little Binks with his eyes peacefully closed and a beautiful smile on his lips. It was absolutely precious.

It's moments like these that help me through the more regular moments ~ like...

Finding my little girls in the 1/2 bath naked in the sink. I asked them what they are doing and they smiled up at me and said "washing each other!" I simply closed the door and walked away.

Or...

Sitting at the dinner table doing all within my power to inspire cleanliness within my children only to find that I was sweating profusely. I attributed my excessive moisture to little Binks strapped to the front of me. Come to find out one of my children who shall remain nameless (though I know not why!) decided to turn the heat up to EIGHTY-FIVE degrees because he was cold. That's going to make a pretty gas bill next month.

Or...

Waking up at 6 a.m. to a new day, full of zeal, ready to try a little harder and do a little better. Just as I am ready to jump in the shower with a new lilt in my step I hear my 3-year-old awaken in the other room screaming. "I can do this" I tell myself as she enters my room yelling through her tears "Mom! Binks is awake!" Yes. He izzzzzz awake now. Binks is now crying, needs to eat, and I pick him up only to see that he's peed out of his bulging diaper, soaking my sheets beneath him. Breathe. Trying to hold on to my morning zeal I tell myself it's okay. I will just wash sheets for the morning laundry. Who needs a shower anyway? Surely I don't stink too bad. I'll just throw on my wig. Once again I feel like I'm accomplishing very little around here...

I cherish those tender moments that smooth over the not-so-tender moments. 

Years ago, during a very difficult time in my life, a dear friend gave me this picture and its words continue to encourage me as they still hang on my wall today.